Engineering My Faith

Preached at First Presbyterian Church of Rolla on the Second Sunday in Lent. Based on Luke 13:31-35.

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Today, we encounter one of the passages that reveals and celebrates the female nature of the divine. In the beginning, God created all people, male and female, in the image of God. So that must mean that God has both male and female aspects. In the Old Testament, there are two clear images of God’s female nature. First, ruach, the Hebrew word used for the Holy Spirit, is feminine. That’s why in The Shack, both the book and the movie, the character who represents the Holy Spirit is named Sarayu and is portrayed as a woman, but one that you can’t really look at directly because the Holy Spirit is always on the move. Second, Wisdom is personified in several places and portrayed as a woman. In Greek, Wisdom’s name is Sophia. Who exactly is Sophia? Well, if Jesus is the Word, the Logos as in the opening of the Gospel of John, then I suppose Jesus is Sophia.

In today’s passage, we see Jesus exhibiting that feminine nature. Although in a male body, he taps into his feminine side and likens himself to a mother hen. I’m going to try to use both male and female pronouns today. Usually, when I talk about God, I just avoid pronouns altogether. The problem with that is that we have been conditioned for centuries to think of God the Father as male, so if I don’t use a pronoun, most people will mentally insert a “he.” But God is both male and female—we are all made in God’s image, regardless of our gender. So we need to get comfortable talking about God as “she” to enable us to see the divine spark in not just men, but also women and people who are nonbinary.

OK, turning now to the text, we see Jesus weeping over Jerusalem. At that time, Jerusalem was the central focus of both the religious and political establishments. In modern America, there is no good equivalent, but perhaps it was something like London in the 17^th century, where both the King of England and the Archbishop of Canterbury resided. Or like Moscow today, where the Kremlin is located and where the seat of the Russian Orthodox Church is located—also called the Moscow Patriarchate. As an aside, I read a compelling argument from Diana Butler Bass that one of the driving factors of the Russian invasion of Ukraine was a desire to assert Moscow’s primacy as the seat of Eastern Orthodoxy in the region. Putin is looking to re-establish Moscow as both the political and the cultural center of eastern Europe.

The seats of both religious and political power are stereotypically masculine. Historically, most monarchs have been kings, not queens, and most dictators are certainly men. Returning again to Putin, he really leans into stereotypical masculinity—the shirtless horse rides, his dominance in hockey games and as a judo black belt. The Roman Empire had male emperors and governors and client kings. There were female Judges in ancient Israel, but the monarchy rule was all male. Similarly, until the last half-century, the religious establishment has been exclusively male. In fact, if you read the history of the church—not theology, but about the organization—it’s sometimes hard to remember that you’re reading about spiritual leaders, rather than power-hungry politicians.

Jesus gives us a different image of God, though. Some of his followers wanted Jesus to replace Roman rule with Messianic rule, trading out a brutal dictator for the true Son of God. But what kind of rule would Jesus have imposed if he had chosen to do so? Not another dictatorship, but the gentle care of a hen for her chicks.

We used to raise chickens. Occasionally, one of them would get the urge to nest and would hatch out a brood. Interestingly, the brooding hen would sit on all of the eggs, not just her own. I’ve been told that hens will sit on any egg, even fake ones, because that maternal drive is so strong. Anyway, once they hatch out, the brood hen will protect them and care for them. I’ve also been told that in other nesting situations where each hen needs to sit on her own eggs, once they hatch, one hen will take over and raise all of the chicks.

This is a great vision of church unity. We are all God’s brood. Whether we come to her by being raised in a church or by turning to God later in life, we are recipients of her love and protection. God desires us all to be in her family. Even if we are children of a different religious tradition, God will gather us all in.

Jerusalem was the seat of power, so Jesus’s followers expected him to co-opt that power for his own divine purposes. But that was not Jesus’s way. He proclaimed that the kin-dom of God is at hand, and he proclaimed that in the wilderness near the Jordan, and in Galilee, and in the Gentile Decapolis, and everywhere else he went. In today’s passage, he said he had to leave Jerusalem because he had work to do elsewhere. His message was not just for the establishment, but for everyone. And what was his message? In Luke, everything centers on Jesus’s proclamation of the Jubilee. It was a time when the world’s power structures would be turned upside down. As the great Israeli human-rights activist Uri Avnery is fond of saying, “When you are on the top, you love stability. When you are on the bottom, you want change!” Jesus had to leave Jerusalem to reach those who were on the bottom, those who were far from the seat of power but desperate for change in their lives.

The passage opens with, “At that very hour.” So let’s talk a little bit about the context. In the passages preceding today’s lesson, Jesus was teaching about the kingdom of God using parables. There was also a time when he healed on the sabbath. Then we have this interlude, and then he goes on to do more healing on the sabbath and more teaching about the kingdom of God. Well, Luke doesn’t jump around in the storytelling just for fun or just because he was a bad editor. He situated this story on purpose. So clearly he intended that this story would also tell us something about the kingdom of God or about healing on the sabbath. I think Luke perceived Jesus’s description of the triune God as our divine mother as another parable about God’s kingdom.

What is the kingdom of God like? It’s like being gathered as a hen gathers her chicks. God embraces us all, gathering us into her care and protection. Just like a hen with her chicks, God gently nudges us into safety. Chicks will wander around the coop and get themselves into all sorts of trouble. The brood hen can’t prevent that altogether, but certainly tries to protect the chicks from themselves. She helps them find food and water. She helps them grow into adult chickens. In the same way, God guides us to keep us out of trouble. She helps us find the spiritual food and living water that we need. She helps us fulfill our promise as images of God.

As I was working on this sermon, I kept thinking about mothers and how we describe them. A Google search will find you many, many poems about the love and care that a mother shows. Now, I have been blessed with a wonderful mother, but I recognize that not everyone has. Mothers are human, and so they are subject to all of the same limits and weaknesses as every other human being. We all fail to love as we should, some in subtle ways, others in dramatic ways. Jesus was holding up the ideal mother as an image of God, just as God is our perfect father and our perfect sibling. If you take any of the warm-hearted Mother’s Day poems and put “God” in place of “Mom” or “mother,” you will get an understanding of God’s true nature. God’s love is like a mother’s love—made of deep devotion and of sacrifice and pain, endless and unselfish, patient and forgiving. God, like the perfect mother, tells us all the things we need to hear before we know we need to hear them, and teaches us to be unafraid. God’s love is like moonlight turning harsh things to beauty. God’s motherly love and protection is the example that we should all aspire to.

The brood hen will also protect her chicks from predators. Sometimes the predator is too strong—like Herod, that fox, who ultimately has a role in Jesus’s death. But the hen does her best to protect her chicks. In the same way, God is our perfect mother—nurturing us while also protecting us from the predators of this world. Perhaps like a mother bear. Bears usually won’t attack people, but the most dangerous thing you can do is to get between a mother bear and her cub. Bears won’t go out of their way to pick a fight with a person, but will definitely defend their children. In the same way, Jesus was not a warrior who attacked the establishment, but laid down his life to defend and protect his people.

Throughout this passage, we hear echoes of Holy Week, the time when Jesus would finish his work. He says that he has to leave Jerusalem because that’s where prophets are killed, but he implies that he will return when the time is right. He says that he won’t be seen again in Jerusalem until the time when people say, ‘Blessed is the one who comes in the name of the Lord.’ Hosanna! the people shout, as their victorious king enters the city on a donkey. He is indeed coming to triumph over the establishment, but not in the way everyone expected. His entry was triumphant, but humble. His victory was not over the Roman government, but instead over sin and death, achieved by taking them on himself. He will protect all of God’s people as only he can: by sacrificing his own life.

I’ve also been thinking this week about martyrs. We normally associate martyrdom with the great turning points in Christian history. First at our founding—the martyrdoms of Stephen and James that we read about in the book of Acts, the Christians sent out to fight lions, and so forth through the first centuries before Christianity became the Roman state religion. Then the Reformation—Luther was almost martyred but was rescued; other reformers weren’t so lucky. Well, if martyrdom is associated with turning points, we must be in another turning-point age. The 20^th century had more Christian martyrs than the entire previous nineteen centuries. As in the first few centuries, they were killed because they proclaimed God’s supremacy over the political powers of the world. They were killed by autocratic regimes around the world—Nazi Germany, the Soviet Union, the People’s Republic of China, and many lesser states who sought to enforce their rule over all aspects of their citizens’ lives. Christians proclaimed that they were part of God’s eternal kin-dom, and that God held ultimate sway in their lives, not some worldly power or principality. As it is stated so clearly in the Theological Declaration of Barmen, “We reject the false doctrine, as though there were areas of our life in which we would not belong to Jesus Christ, but to other lords—areas in which we would not need justification and sanctification through him.” Or as I read in an article about the topic,

Perhaps the most important witness the new martyrs gave in their heroic fidelity—inexplicable apart from their simple love and trust in God—is the witness to the truth that the politics of power is not all there is. They demonstrated that human beings are not what the totalitarian project said they were: merely machines to be manipulated, for whom faith was an opiate and scientific materialism would be liberation. That human dignity could be preserved by the death of human beings is a paradox of the highest order. It is also, not coincidentally, a paradox at the heart of the Christian religion.

“Martyr” means “witness.” The martyrs of the 20^th century were witnesses to the ultimate truth of God’s reign, first demonstrated by Jesus’s death at the hands of the Roman Empire. Jesus triumphed not as a warrior, but by laying down his life as a sacrifice. Like a hen protecting her chicks from a fox, Jesus did the only thing he could do to conquer all of the evil of this world for all time: he gave himself to save us all.

The Pharisees were Jesus’s sparring partners, but not really his enemies. Like Jesus, they were seeking the best way to follow God. They knew that Jesus was on a path that put him in conflict with the worldly powers. They wanted him to hide, to run away and save himself, to take the easy path. But he knew a better way. He kept working to show his love, God’s motherly love for all her children, knowing that God’s love was the only thing powerful enough to defeat the powers of sin and death. Let us now live into that love, embracing God as our perfect mother as well as our perfect brother and perfect father, and sharing that love with all of God’s children. Amen.

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Preached at First Presbyterian Church of Rolla on the First Sunday in Lent. Based on Luke 4:1-13.

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Here we are on the first Sunday in Lent. I want to start by sharing a little bit about Lent for those who don’t know, or as reminders for the rest of us. Lent is a time of preparation for the glory of Easter. Just as the Israelites wandered in the wilderness for 40 years, and Moses fasted for 40 days before receiving the covenant from God in the Ten Commandments, and Jesus fasted for 40 days as we heard in today’s reading, the church decided long ago that every Christian should fast for 40 days in preparation for receiving the gift of Jesus’s resurrection.

If you count back 40 days from Easter, the way you get to Ash Wednesday, when Lent begins, is by skipping Sundays. Theologically, Sunday is called the Lord’s Day, and is a “baby Easter.” Each week, we break our fast and remember that at the end of this time of trial, resurrection and salvation await. I guess also, since we are not Moses or Jesus, 40 consecutive days of fasting would be too much for us, so we get a break each week.

There are lots of ways to observe the Lenten fast. A characteristically Catholic way is to not eat meat on Fridays. That’s why Catholic churches have fish fries on Fridays in Lent. Of course, if you’ve ever been to one, you probably didn’t really feel like you were fasting! Sure, they don’t eat meat, but they eat plenty of other stuff.

Some people approach the Lenten fast as a form of self-improvement, basically as if it were a diet. But we should remember that the goal of Lent is not to improve ourselves, but to turn our lives over to God. We fast in solidarity with Jesus. Fasting is a way of removing obstacles between ourselves and God. We don’t just remove something, like meat or chocolate or whatever, but we also add something in its place, some way of connecting with God. It’s not a time of self-improvement, but of God-improvement.

Right before today’s lesson, Jesus was baptized. In all three Synoptic Gospels, we read that he was led or driven by the Holy Spirit out into the desert. Later on, Jesus teaches us to pray, “Lead us not into temptation.” But here, God does exactly that to him. God the Holy Spirit leads God the Son into the desert so that he can be tested. In the same way, church leaders and all spiritual leaders are tested. Jesus was unique in that he was able to resist all of the devil’s temptations. Maybe he included that line in the Lord’s Prayer because he knew how hard it was to resist.

Some of you may know a little bit about what’s going on with Salem Avenue Baptist Church. My elk-hunting friend Wayne used to attend there. In December, their pastor, Patrick, had to resign. I don’t want to get into all of the reasons, but I will say that Wayne was in alignment with Patrick and decided to leave that church. Wayne told me that he immediately felt the devil working on him. See, he was a very active part of that congregation, serving in a capacity similar to our session, leading a Bible study, and so forth. He thought, Gee, now I have my Sunday mornings free. Now I don’t need to do all of that preparation for leading the Bible study. No more meetings.

But wait—that’s not God’s will. God desires us all to participate in God’s work in the world, bringing ourselves and others closer to God. Ultimately, Wayne took up the challenge of gathering others who were disaffected and rallying them around their pastor. They have been meeting regularly on Saturday evenings and are on a path towards forming a new church. Wayne resisted the temptation to turn away from God.

The devil has other ways to work on church leaders. Scandal has wracked every denomination throughout history. Regrettably, there’s an active case in our denomination that I’ve read about, an allegation of emotional abuse. The root of that case and so many others is the substitution of a person’s will for God’s will. Church leaders are tempted to believe that they are acting on behalf of God, so they can do whatever they want. I will admit that I have fallen prey to this temptation as well. As you know, I’ve been preaching here regularly since Lou Ellen left, but really, I have no more spiritual authority than any other elder. Heck, most members of the congregation have been ordained as ruling elders at some point in their lives, so they have just as much right to preach as I do. The only difference is that I’ve done some training and have committed to sharing God’s word in this way. I need to remind myself, and to be reminded, that I am called to preach God’s word, not my word. This is God’s pulpit and God’s church, not mine.

Jesus was tempted, and Jesus actually WAS God. He could have been a warrior Messiah if he had chosen to do so. But he didn’t. He chose a different path. He rejected the devil’s temptations by citing Deuteronomy, which was Moses’s teaching to the Israelites late in life as they were approaching the Promised Land. Let’s look at those three responses. Whenever the New Testament cites the Old Testament, we should read not only the specific verse cited, but also the whole context of that verse.

The first temptation was for Jesus to turn stones to bread. Jesus responded by citing Deuteronomy 8:3, which reads, “God humbled you by letting you hunger, then by feeding you with manna, with which neither you nor your ancestors were acquainted, in order to make you understand that one does not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord.” Jesus is teaching us that we should take God’s message seriously about how to live in this world. Food is important, yes, but so is reconciliation and community. That’s something I love about The Rolla Mission. Not only do they care for their patrons’ material needs, including food, but also, they care for their patrons’ emotional and spiritual needs. They foster a sense of community, of connection. They strive to help the patrons move from the margins into full membership in our local society. I was reminded recently about Maslow’s hierarchy of needs. Food and shelter are at the bottom, and are clearly necessary to live, but they are not sufficient for flourishing. As a person’s physiological needs and safety needs are satisfied, they next need love and belonging in order to continue to grow into the person God wants them to be. Jesus reminds us that God’s word helps us to build a community that satisfies those needs for love and belonging.

Next, the devil promised Jesus power and authority over all the kingdoms of the world in exchange for worshipping him. Jesus responded by quoting Deuteronomy 10:20, which reads, “You shall fear the Lord your God; him alone you shall worship; to him you shall hold fast, and by his name you shall swear.” That section of Moses’s speech addresses idolatry and foreign gods. To the extent that you think of the Lenten fast as self-improvement, you should think of ways to reject the idols in your life. What do you value more than your relationship with God? What has become an idol to you that you need to remove so that you can love God with your whole heart? That section of Deuteronomy also teaches that God is mighty and awesome, executes justice for the widow and orphan, and loves the strangers—so we also should love the stranger. We are called not to rule the world in power, but to share God’s love with the marginalized and neglected.

The final temptation was for Jesus to demonstrate God’s power by flinging himself from the pinnacle of the temple. Here, the devil revealed himself to be an excellent proof-texter. The Bible is a thick book, and you can find a verse in it to support just about any argument, which is what the devil did. Jesus responded to the devil by citing Deuteronomy 6:16: “Do not put the Lord your God to the test, as you tested him at Massah.” Now, there’s a back story there about what it means to love God. The Israelites were wandering in the desert and had no water. They were complaining to Moses and rejecting God. They didn’t trust in God’s providence. At Massah, God provided water from a rock. The message is that if we trust in God and follow God’s commandments, God will take care of us. We do our part and God does God’s part.

So in essence, all three temptations were about loving God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength. Jesus resisted all of the devil’s temptations by remembering how God had cared for Israel. Jesus was full of the Spirit and empowered to preach the good news that the kin-dom of God is at hand. He returned from his testing in the desert to start his ministry. He taught in the synagogues and then went to his hometown to proclaim his mission statement, the central theme of the Gospel of Luke:

“The Spirit of the Lord is upon me,

    because he has anointed me

        to bring good news to the poor.

He has sent me to proclaim release to the captives

    and recovery of sight to the blind,

        to let the oppressed go free,

to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.”

Luke 4:18-19

Jesus trusted in God’s message of love and reconciliation. He trusted in God’s providence. He rejected worldly power in favor of equality with all people. Filled with love for his lost sheep, he returned to his community to proclaim the Jubilee. He proclaimed that the kin-dom of God was at hand, and that God’s realm is a place of freedom, of healing, and of divine rest.

There are two halves of the Great Commandment. Later in Jesus’s ministry, he was asked, “Teacher, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?” The ultimate answer was to love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength, and to love your neighbor as yourself. The testing in the desert was centered on the first half. In the same way, we all encounter temptations that lead us away from loving God with our whole being. Instead, we start limiting the parts of our lives in which we let God hold supreme authority. We make compromises in our jobs and our investments, supposing that God’s reign doesn’t extend to the way we make a living. We believe in the myth of redemptive violence, the idea that retribution is more practical than the reconciliation that Jesus preached.

When we limit the dominion of God in our lives, we end up limiting our commitment to the second half of the Great Commandment. We don’t truly believe that God will provide for our every need, so we adopt a scarcity mentality, a zero-sum attitude that emphasizes getting what we can by any means necessary rather than sharing with our neighbors out of our abundance. We read Jesus’s message about welcoming and caring for the stranger, but when we are confronted with an actual needy stranger, we choose our own comfort and safety over the welfare of another of God’s children.

For we are all God’s children. Luke gives Jesus’s genealogy in between his baptism and his temptations. Luke traces Jesus’s lineage all the way back to “the son of Enos, the son of Seth, the son of Adam, the son of God.” We all trace our lineage back to our divine Creator. We are all made in the image of God. So loving God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength means loving our neighbor as ourselves. In rejecting a person as unworthy of our love, we are rejecting God. As Jesus taught in Matthew 25, whatever we do to “the least of these” we do to Jesus himself.

But boy, is that hard. We are constantly tempted to see God in ourselves but not in others and to elevate our own will above God’s will. Jesus resisted that temptation, but we constantly fall prey to it. As a congregation, a local expression of the one holy catholic church, we are right now wandering in the desert. Like sheep without a shepherd, we will be tempted to stray from the path God has chosen for us. We will be tempted to disengage from spreading the good news of God’s love for all people. We will be tempted to seek our own material wealth or political power. Above all, we will be tempted to believe that God has abandoned us, that we cannot rely on God to provide for us. We will be tempted to substitute our own will and our own desires for God’s desires. We will be tempted to treat this church as if it were a social club instead of a God-centered, worshipping community.

During this Lenten season, let us remember that Jesus too was tempted. He could have stepped away from the path laid out before him, the path that he knew would lead to his death. But he didn’t. He knew that he was the Son of God, who would conquer death and reconcile all people to God, creating a new heavenly nation where everyone belongs. We too are children of God, Jesus’s siblings, bound for glorious citizenship in God’s holy realm. We will be tested, tempted to abandon our calling, tempted to turn away from the path that leads to eternal life. With God’s help, we can resist that temptation and live as people of God today, loving God by loving our neighbors and believing that God loves each one of us and will never abandon us. Amen.

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Preached at First Presbyterian Church of Rolla. Based on Jeremiah 17:5-10 and Luke 6:17-26.

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For a little over two years, I have used a planner called a Monk Manual. The motivating principle behind it is that monks are some of the happiest and most productive people. Steven Lawson, the creator of the Monk Manual, studied the monastic life and developed a way to achieve similar results in secular life. His approach encompasses these ten principles:

• Gratitude
• Simplicity
• Intentionality
• Order
• Generosity
• Relationships
• Reflection
• Presence
• Balance
• Transcendence

The question is, how can we incorporate these in our daily lives? Lawson developed the Monk Manual as a way of integrating spiritual practices that lead to living out these principles. Just last week, I started a program he calls, “Find Your Inner Monk,” which delves deeper into these concepts.

I want to focus on just a few today to set the stage for the rest of our time together. The first is simplicity. Simplicity begins with letting go. Monks express this tangibly by paring down to the essentials—both emotionally and physically—liberating themselves from the things that weigh down their mind, body, and spirit. The vows of poverty and chastity are the tangible expressions of a dedication to simplicity. Much easier said than done. If you start making a list of all the things in your life that you “need,” you will find that it includes many things that were unknown a generation ago. Do I “need” a smartphone? Probably not, but getting rid of it is unimaginable to me.

Next, there are relationships. Monks vow chastity, but do not live without love. Instead, they embrace a different kind of love, the chaste love of brotherhood. In the same way, we can have lives filled with loving relationships. In the Monk Manual, there is a spot for daily gratitude. Most of my entries there are people with whom I have a relationship—sometimes family members, but often friends who enrich my life, or even casual acquaintances who reveal God to me. Hospice nurses cite that the biggest regret of the dying has nothing to do with achievements or financial investments—but has everything to do with relationships. I’m an engineer and an introvert, so for much of my life, I’ve focused on developing a few close relationships. Over the past few years, I’ve tried to broaden my social circle. The pandemic has made that difficult—I think everyone’s social circles have been collapsing just because it is SO HARD to get together. Still, I’ve been striving to stay connected with old friends and develop new friendships.

The last principle I want to discuss is presence. Presence means letting go of the past and the future and being fully in the moment. It means really listening to the person you’re talking to, rather than thinking about what you’re going to say next. We are so used to control that it’s hard to let go, and trust that it really is going to be okay, after all. Engaging with what’s right in front of us, which means giving ourselves fully to the present moment, requires vulnerability—which can be terrifying. But if you’re ever with someone who has real presence—like my friend Ashley Brooks—it’s exhilarating. Their openness and presence are contagious and make you more open and present with them.

Simplicity, relationships, and presence—three ways we let go of our attachments to the material world and surrender to God. This week’s Gospel lesson is the opening part of the Sermon on the Plain, which is Luke’s parallel with Matthew’s Sermon on the Mount. As in Matthew, Luke opens the sermon with blessings, but unlike Matthew, Luke includes the woes here as well. We see these pairings: Blessed are you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of God. But woe to you who are rich, for you have received your consolation. Blessed are you who are hungry now, for you will be filled. Woe to you who are full now, for you will be hungry. Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh. Woe to you who are laughing now, for you will mourn and weep. Basically, if you’re down, you’ll be lifted up; if you’re up, you’ll be brought low.

The blessings are for those who trust in God. The woes are for those who trust in worldly things. If you are rich and you think you can rely on your wealth, you will be reluctant to trust in God. But as the saying goes, you can’t take it with you. One day, you’ll have no choice but to surrender all that you have. If you release your attachments now, you can break free of the cycle of blessing and woe inherent to our world and you’ll be more able to live in God’s realm now. Jesus’s message that the kingdom of God is at hand reminds us that we can live in God’s kingdom now, not later. But living in God’s kingdom means not living in a worldly kingdom.

Jeremiah has similar curses and blessings. Cursed are those who trust in mere mortals, but blessed are those who trust in the LORD. Then Jeremiah follows up with a reminder that, “The heart is devious above all else.” It’s easy to turn your whole life over to God, or rather to say that you’re turning it over, but hard to really let go. Most often, we say that we will put our trust in God alone, but then don’t follow through. On Sunday, we believe that God will provide, but on Monday, we go to work or check our investments. When I was working with Rocco to design our new house, I started out with the intention of downsizing because our family doesn’t need so many attachments—but by the end of the project, we ended up with a bigger house and more storage space for all the stuff we don’t really need. I’d like to let go and trust in God completely, but it’s a struggle every day.

 It’s important to remember, though, that these blessings and woes are not commands, but rather are descriptions of reality. If you put your trust in your wealth, you’ll worry about every dip in the stock market. If you are attached to your possessions, they wind up owning you. If instead you let go of your possessions and trust in God, there’s nothing you can lose. I’m reminded of Nino—some of you know him from the Mission. He went through some things, including alcohol addiction and prison, but then found Jesus and turned his life around. He posted once on Facebook, “I don’t have much but I have it all.” He has let go of all his material needs and dedicated himself to serving God, and he’s filled with joy. It’s always great when he stops by the Mission. He lifts people up and makes the community better just by his presence, which reflects the glory of God.

Nino has enough. We live in a society where a scarcity mindset prevails. We worry that we won’t have enough time to do everything we “need” to do. We worry that we won’t have enough money to be secure. So we chase after more money, which uses up the time we don’t have. I was listening to a recording by Father Richard Rohr recently, and he pointed out that our homes and kitchens are full of “time-saving devices,” and yet we have less time than ever. The pursuit of abundance leaves us always feeling scarcity. We think, If I just have X, I’ll be happy. I just need a new car, or a new job, or a bigger TV, or a faster computer. Then we get it, and it’s nice at first, but eventually it leaves us unsatisfied. The more we have, the more we want, and the less it satisfies.

So the opposite of scarcity is not abundance. The opposite of the scarcity-abundance trap is enough. Kurt Vonnegut wrote this poem as an obituary:

True story, Word of Honor:
Joseph Heller, an important and funny writer
now dead,
and I were at a party given by a billionaire
on Shelter Island.
I said, “Joe, how does it make you feel
to know that our host only yesterday
may have made more money
than your novel ‘Catch-22’
has earned in its entire history?”
And Joe said, “I’ve got something he can never have.”
And I said, “What on earth could that be, Joe?”
And Joe said, “The knowledge that I’ve got enough.”
Not bad! Rest in peace!”

Enough. Instead of striving to have what you want, enough-ness is wanting what you have. The root of this enough-ness is relationships.

Father Rohr reminds his audience that many poor people in Third World countries are much happier than relatively well-off people in America. The reason is that instead of relying on things, they rely on each other. They know that if they are in need, their family or their neighbors will help them out. Instead of putting their time and energy into building up a big bank account, they build up a big social account—wealth in the form of social connections. Elsewhere I have heard this called the gift economy. I give something to you, not as a loan against some future gift you’ll give me, but as an investment in our friendship. And maybe you won’t “pay me back,” but in sharing of myself, I help build up a community of belonging where people support each other. God’s realm is built on something even more powerful: the grace economy. We share not only our time and resources, which are limited, but also God’s grace, which is limitless. God’s grace multiplies our efforts and strengthens our relationships.

I mentioned that I started a program called, “Find Your Inner Monk.” It’s described by Monk Manual founder Steve Lawson as a pilgrimage, but a pilgrimage that takes place in your daily life. In the first lesson, he talks about how we form our ideas, values, and goals, and how we answer life’s big questions. Especially in America, we have this image in our minds of the solitary individual deriving answers from first principles and formulating their own vision of how the world works. That image drives the phenomenon of those who say they are spiritual but not religious, instead seeking answers to life’s questions on their own. But Lawson points out that that’s not a reflection of reality. In reality, the influences on our ideologies and beliefs are first our communities of belonging, then the broader culture, and then our personal experiences. That is, our communities of belonging have the strongest influence, and the more we feel belonging, the more permeable we are, the more open we are to the community’s beliefs.

As we let go of our worldly attachments and invest instead in relationships, we build up those communities of belonging. The more I give to this church, in time, talent, and treasure, the more I feel a part of it, and the more it molds me into its image. We should work towards making our church both a place where people feel complete belonging, and a place where we lift up Jesus Christ and his self-sacrificing love as the ideal that we are all striving to achieve.

I’ve noticed something curious about the human psyche. You would think that receiving a gift would make you value the giver more and make you feel more a part of the giver’s community. But that hasn’t been my experience. In reality, it is in giving that we ascribe more value to the receiver, and in giving that we feel more a part of the receiving community. It’s as if the receiver validates our gift, and therefore validates us as a person and as a member of the community. That’s why so many people volunteer at the Mission and at GRACE and at all of the other charitable organizations in town. That’s why a great way to reconcile with someone is not to give them something, but to ask them for a favor, which shows that you value them.

So to build a true community of belonging, we need to value the gifts each person has to offer. If we want to grow in our impact on our community, we don’t need to raise more money for charity, although that won’t hurt and I would still encourage you to give on this Souper Bowl Sunday. We don’t need to be more entertaining, or to have more programs. What we need is to create spaces where people feel valued, where the gifts they have to offer matter. Some people have financial resources they can share; others have musical or artistic talents, or know how to fix things, or know how to organize and plan, or are good with numbers, or whatever. All of us have life experiences that we can share, things we have learned that can help others see God in a new way. All of us have a yearning to love and be loved.

A community where people truly feel belonging, where they can bring their full selves and all their life experiences and skills and talents, has a name: the kingdom of God. I’m not sure how to build such a community, but Jesus tells us that the kingdom of God is at hand. It’s nearby, just waiting for us to enter it. Let us all strive to create spaces where people can give of themselves, their whole selves, and receive in return the grace of God and membership in God’s glorious kingdom.

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Sermon based on Isaiah 6:1-8; Luke 5:1-11. Preached at First Presbyterian Church of Rolla.

Well, here we are, first Sunday of February. How are you all doing on your New Year’s resolutions? I didn’t make any resolutions, per se, but did intend to change my morning and evening routines. I have been somewhat successful in changing my evening routine, but my morning routine is another story. My intention was to go running every morning to stay active. Well, New Year’s weekend was bitterly cold and also deer season, so I didn’t get off to a very good start. Since then, I’ve gone running occasionally, but not regularly.

My dear friend Ashley Brooks recommended a book to me, Resisting Happiness by Matthew Kelly. I finally got around to reading it over winter break. One of its motivating concepts is the idea that we resist things that we know will make us happier. I know that I feel better and have a better day when I run in the morning, and I know that I enjoy the run itself, and yet I struggle to convince myself to get dressed and go when it’s 12° outside or when there’s freezing rain, sleet, and snow on the way, or 6” of snow on the ground. In the same way, I know that praying, reading the Bible, and other spiritual practices will bring me closer to God, yet I resist doing them. We all have this resistance inside of us.

There’s one concept in the book that I take issue with. It’s the idea that we can choose or seek “happiness.” So often, seeking happiness becomes a search for hedonistic pleasures. But that kind of happiness is fleeting. What the author is really talking about is the deep joy that comes from our relationship with God and with God’s people.

It’s hard to know, though, what choices we can make to become happier or more joyful. In a podcast about our relationship with time, I heard a concept that can help: Choose enlargement. It’s hard to know which paths will lead to happiness or joy, but it’s often easier to know which path will enlarge you. For example, playing an instrument well requires hours and hours of practice, much of it drudgery. I wouldn’t say that I enjoy playing scales or arpeggios or chord progressions, but I know that those exercises make me more able to make music. The example in the podcast was parenthood: Nobody will claim that getting up in the middle of the night to change a dirty diaper is “fun,” but parents do it because it’s part and parcel of the parenting journey.

In today’s reading, Simon reacts to the miraculous catch by saying, “Go away from me, Lord, for I am a sinful man!” In what way was he sinful? I mean, we never hear that he was a murderer or thief or anything. Partly, I think he recognized his sinfulness in comparison to the perfection of Jesus. But more than that, he recognized his finitude, his limitations. We all fall short of the glory of God because we are limited. We love some people more than others. We acknowledge that people in our community, state, nation, and world are in need, but we don’t help them all. Compared to the Lord of Creation, we are small people of limited capabilities. But if we each choose a path that leads to enlargement, to making us a more complete person, we will become better versions of ourselves.

One way we can enlarge ourselves is to become a part of something bigger than ourselves. Let me explain. As an individual, if I see someone who is homeless, I can give them a little money or food, but that’s about it. But if I connect to The Mission, I can help that homeless person get meals regularly, have a place to stay, and get other services they need. As an individual, I can teach a few people about a few topics in electrical engineering. As a professor at a university, I can contribute to a large number of students becoming fully-qualified electrical engineers. We all have a desire to be a part of something bigger than ourselves.

And that’s basically why we are here today, right? We want to be a part of something bigger than ourselves, and what’s bigger than God’s family? In the sanctuary today, there are a few dozen members of Christ’s body, but we are connected to other Presbyterian churches in our presbytery, synod, and general assembly, and more broadly are connected to all expressions of Christ’s teachings. We are all connected throughout time and space. We are connected to the great cloud of witnesses, the communion of saints who enjoy the abundant heavenly banquet. We are connected to poor Simon who just wanted to catch a few fish, but saw God’s realm breaking through and dropped everything to follow Jesus. Simon saw a glimpse of the heavenly banquet that is to come and chose to be a part of it—chose enlargement.

In following Jesus, Simon was promised that he would be a valued part of Jesus’s efforts to build his kingdom. As we heard in the introit, Jesus promised to make Simon worthy. He promised that Simon would do important work fishing for people.

Jesus asked Simon to leave everything he had, everything he thought was important, and abandon his own earthly desires. Simon’s yes had to be followed by a thousand nos. We are finite. We have limited time and resources. We can only be in one place at a time. So, to say yes, I will do this thing for Jesus, means saying no, I will not do these other things for myself or my family or my job. This is a hard calling. I’ve been listening to a recording of lectures by Father Richard Rohr, a Franciscan friar, wisdom teacher, and founder of the Center for Action and Contemplation. Father Rohr reminds us that in the affluence of America, it is hard to obey Jesus’s call. We are bound with golden shackles—unwilling to let go of the things that make our life comfortable, for the sake of following Jesus. This is the part of the sermon when I preach to myself—as much as I’m willing to give to God, I’m very happy living in a nice house and driving a nice car and having a nice life. I struggle to turn away from my career as an engineering professor and spend more time and energy on God’s kin-dom.

But Jesus didn’t ask Simon to set aside his true self. I know it’s a metaphor, but Jesus told Simon he would still be fishing, but for people instead. In the same way, Jesus asks us to bring our true selves, our whole selves, to his service. Jesus doesn’t ask me to cease to be an engineer or a scholar, but instead to bring my skills and talents to bear on his Gospel. Each of us have special gifts that we can use in God’s service. We are all grateful for Jeff and Lorie devoting their musical gifts to God. Nora brings her lifetime of teaching children to her stewardship of the Presbyterian Preschool. I’m glad that Ming brings the skills he developed over an illustrious career as an academic leader to his membership on the PNC. In ways too numerous to mention, we each have skills and talents that we have developed over our lives that we can draw upon and dedicate to God’s service, to building up God’s kin-dom.

Here in Rolla, there are surely thousands of people, maybe more than ten thousand, who are not connected to Christ’s body, which is the church. Jesus is drawing all people to himself, reconciling the whole world and seeking an intimate relationship with each person. He calls us to help in this work, to build up connections person-to-person so that we can experience God’s kin-dom here and now. But the challenge is too big. I cannot personally tell ten thousand people about the love God has for them. Even as a congregation, we can’t possibly reach everyone. But that doesn’t excuse us from trying to reach someone. We need to start somewhere.

Let’s start by thinking about who is not here. Who is not worshipping in the sanctuary this morning? Well, for starters, our homebound members and others for whom worshipping remotely is preferable due to their life situations. Today, that group is probably a bit bigger than usual because of the weather. Some of us, particularly the deacons, are called to help those members stay connected to Christ’s body even if we don’t see them in our sanctuary. Looking beyond our members, let’s think about those vast groups of people who aren’t here. There are the younger generations, by which I mean anyone under the age of 50. For a variety of reasons, many of them have heard the message that they are not welcome in God’s kin-dom. Some have been explicitly told that “their kind,” whatever that means, aren’t welcome in a particular church. Or maybe their friends have been excluded, and so they won’t go anywhere their friends aren’t welcome. Or maybe our inward focus, on the worship style, architecture, music, and programs that matter to people like us, implicitly excludes people who are intimidated by our sanctuary, dislike our music, or whatever. By failing to meet them where they are, we send the message that they aren’t welcome, that they don’t matter to us.

Jesus said, Come, follow me, and I’ll teach you. He knew that Simon would be in challenging situations, dealing with people he had nothing in common with or even people he hated, such as tax collectors and Roman soldiers. In the same way, Jesus knows that if we follow him, we will be challenged. We’ll meet people who have very different life experiences from us. We’ll meet people who are made anxious by the very things that bring us comfort and who need comfort that we don’t know how to provide. We’ll meet people dealing with problems we cannot even conceive of.

We are called to bring our whole selves to those encounters. I will never cease to be an engineer or a professor, no matter what happens in my career. I think like an engineer, solve problems like an engineer, and communicate like a professor. I cannot change my past experiences that have formed me into the person I am today, and that’s OK with God. Like removing chaff from wheat, Jesus removes just those things that hold us back from participating in kin-dom building while retaining that core, that nugget of self, deep inside of us. Jesus promises, though, that he will be with us. When we peel back those layers of worldly attachments that separate us from God and each other, we are left exposed and vulnerable. Yet Christ is always with us, protecting our true selves, loving us completely, and enabling us to share his love with our neighbors.

Serenity is what comes when you stop wishing for a different past. Courage is what we need to build a different future. We all, each one of us individually and our congregation as a whole, can have a future filled with God’s glory if we choose it. If we choose to go where God is calling us, we can experience a taste of the abundant life that is to come when God’s realm is complete.

When Simon saw God’s realm breaking through, he immediately responded, “Go away from me, for I am a sinful man.” He realized that, like all of us, he was limited. He was not ready to participate in the full abundance of God’s realm. Jesus said, It’s OK. We don’t have to change the whole world by ourselves. Jesus is the one doing the work, really, and anyway, the world is a big place. All we can do, and all we are asked to do, is to follow Jesus and change the world for one person. And then another. And then another.

I’m not sure what or where my true calling is. I have some idea, but I’m still groping blindly for the next step. What matters is that I’m trying to follow God’s call. It’s OK to be wrong, but it’s not OK to quit trying. I’d like to close now with a prayer written by Thomas Merton that encapsulates what I’m saying, and that I hope will be helpful to you, each one of you, as you strive to follow where Jesus leads you. Let’s pray:

My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always, though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone. Amen.

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